Happily Amber After

Secrets and Sadness

Thursday, 12th August 2004

So, today in Health Studies, I got to talk to Farah about what’s been happening in our group since she stopped sitting with us. I told her about the party, about Joshua and how Mercy has been acting.

“I’m seriously sick of her shit,” I said truthfully, “And I think everyone else is getting tired of it too.”

“Why don’t you talk to her about it?” Farah suggested.

Yeah. Because that’s what girls do. We tell each other that they are acting like a crazy person and they should just stop doing it. And that’s going to go down so well.

Uh, I don’t think so!

“Not sure how she’ll respond to that. Maybe I’ll just write her a letter instead,” I told her, trying politely to shut down her suggestion.

“OK fine. But if she can’t handle confrontation, then her life is going to be hard.”

Well, that’s an interesting way of putting something into perspective.

I tilted my head to one side, “Um… what do you mean?”

“Hello Amber? Look at me,” Farah said as she straightened up, “I deal with it everyday. I don’t exactly blend in with the crowd. And sometimes… I need to defend myself. ”

I took a good, hard look at her. Beyond her gorgeous face, I could see where she was coming from. I think people treat her differently because she wears a hijab.

And Hijab = Muslim = Different.

She didn’t have to spell it out for me, but I’m pretty sure she’s had heaps of confrontations with ignorant people. And she’s had to take a stand. I don’t blame her. I mean, I would be pretty angry if people were making all sorts of assumptions about me, without actually knowing me. So yeah, I think she’s right when she talks about life being hard. Mercy has it heaps easier than what Farah has, that’s for sure. I just wish she wasn’t right about that.

“I get your point,” I conceded.

“She needs to get over herself and stop being so precious. And you guys need to stop putting her on a freaking pedestal.”

I hung my head in shame, “Got it.”

“Babe, chin up,” Farah said sweetly, “I’m sure you’ll work out what’s going on with her. And then she’ll apologise to me and I’ll be back with you guys before you know it.”

“Ooooh, trouble in paradise?”

We both turned around to find Benjamin and Omar sitting behind us, eavesdropping on our conversation.

OMG. Seriously, they are sooooo annoying!

“Don’t we see you enough in Physics?” I said rhetorically.

“Obviously not enough,” Benjamin joked, as he winked at us.


“Let’s rewind a bit,” Omar interrupted, hijacking our conversation, “Farah made some good points. I knew you were a tough chick.”

“The toughest,” Farah said as she flexed her arm.

And then they both laughed.


“I have some news for you,” Omar said, staring intensely at Farah, “About Jordan.”

Farah’s eyes lit up, “Yeah?”

I watched as Omar lean in close to Farah’s ear and deliver the good news that Jordan thought that she was ‘pretty cool’.

We both squealed! But not before I noticed a small frown flicker across Omar’s face as he pulled back from Farah and cast his eyes down to the floor. I couldn’t help but feel sorry for him. It’s sooooo obvious that he likes her too. And he’s playing the nice guy!

Doesn’t he know that nice guys always finish last?

Poor dude.

So sad.

I thought about telling Farah what I think, but I really don’t want to complicate her love life. Because, you know, I apparently ‘interfere’ too much. Plus, I don’t want to make Physics more awkward than it already is. Like I said, I actually don’t mind Omar. He’s pretty decent for a popular guy.

When he’s on his own.

But when he’s with Benjamin? Well, that’s a completely different story.

Mercy wasn’t at school today. All of us tried to contact her, but we didn’t hear anything from her all day. Britt was seriously worried, but then she talked herself into hating her, so now she’s mad at her. Lauren was over her ranting, so she ended up sitting with Aaron’s group, so Amy, Britt, Jenny and I decided to go to the shops and get some lollies to cheer us up.

Yeah. I know.

Jenny actually spent some time with us today.

I did ask her about where’s she’s been going all this time, but she’s a freaking master at deflecting questions. She told us that she’s been ‘studying’. But I call bullshit. Everyone knows that the library is for losers. But then she said that she’s been sitting with Rita’s group just to get away from all the drama.

And I have to admit – that hurt.

High school is all about drama! It’s not High school without drama!

And like, it’s not bad drama. It’s just… different. Like, grown up issues. That’s all.

It also hurt because we are all meant to be friends no matter what. And now things are pretty tense, she’s just left us so she doesn’t have to deal with it. I mean, aren’t we all in this together?

Obviously, Jenny isn’t.

I sooooo wasn’t impressed by her responses, that’s for sure.

Seriously, she’s acting like she’s hiding a massive secret or something. And It’s that annoying that it’s getting the better of me! I don’t think I’ll rest until I find out what it is.

All I have to do now is get the girls to help me find out what’s going on.

Let the investigation begin!

Amber A.



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